Fast

Although I am working and had a super fast paced day...the kind where everytime you look at the clock it seems another hour has zoomed by...it was a great day.

I had my first day of my new writing class.
I am so excited to be in a class again. A reminder of writing, practicing the craft, exercising that daydream space in my mind that I want to create so vividly.

I enjoyed the class and our exercises and look forward to going each week.

Temporary loss of time

Well...I temporarily forgot to write.
guess it can happen to us all, with work and work and work sucking me in right now.

Working on Round Table Pizza commercial # 3 to be shot on Tues and Wed.
of next week.
Lots of prepping and shooting and then wrapping and then I'm free again, temporarily.

Luckily my girlfriend, on sundays, reminds me to step out of the work space in my mind and step back into mental centeredness and presence as we go to yoga.
I wish I could keep it up during the week but unfortunately I can't with my work schedule. You may not believe me but it's true when you're working 8:30am-8pm or even more every day/night.

But...it will all be over shortly and I'll have some down time until the next one comes around.

Excitedly I start a writing class tomorrow night. I'm very excited and
hope I can clear my head since I will be coming from the chaos at work into the creative space of writing.

I look forward to it.

Just stick with it

My wise writing teacher told me that my email read like a frustrated poem
Ha!
That, I like.

Yes, when I'm feeling out of touch with my writing...not making time,
not making progress, I reach into the deep pits inside myself
and turn to trying to "fix"myself.
Like there's a secret handshake I haven't learned yet.
Or there's a buddhist quote that will open the mental door.
Or a moment in time when everything will just switch and I will "become a writer" and everything will be different.

But I am a writer. And this is only a moment in time.
And I WILL stick with it.
And I am making progress.
No one holds the barometer of my progress except me and I'm the one making up those standards.

I am writing every single day like I said I would.
It's 11:59pm and here I am. Fully present and accomplishing my
goal.

How do people do it!?!

I wonder.
How do people do it?
How do they go to the same job, day in, day out...working 10-12 hours a day
and come home to sit in front of the tv, drink a beer or 6 and go to sleep to get little sleep every night and wake up and do it all over again?

Really? It's not that I want to know the answer to this question so I can master it.
But I just don't know how I can stand it when I do it in small increments such as I am right now.

I work 10-12 or more hour days and come home, have some wine, watched some paranormal tv shows and don't forget "Real WOrld" and now I'm trying to go to bed...early.

Early. It's 11:30pm already and I won't even get 8 hours or 7 hours.
What is required to actually feel rested?

So, I don't want to know how to do it so I can accomplish the task of living like this but how can I not do it?

hah! I guess that's the real question. What I daydream about.
Maybe this is my quest and I follow the yellow brick road and see where it goes.
And maybe I won't have to do this much longer.

What to do

What to do what to do...what to do when I'm feeling a bit unmotivated yet like my motivation is pent up and I don't have time for it.
Don't have the energy for it.
Don't quite know how to stick it out and get it out of me.
What to do, what do I need to do?

Will there ever be that magical moment when everything feels like it's in place and it opens itself up to me and says, "Aha! Yes, now...DO!"

And poof! Everything will be as it has never been before but as I always dreamed it should be and I will do.

Ugh...daydreaming...it's what I am best at.

Hmmmmmm

What does one write about when one is trying to write every single day. (I only say "trying" since I missed ONE freakin, measely little day).
I tend to go with the "whatever comes to mind" strategy.

And what happens when nothing comes to mind?

Hmmmmmmm......

Seeing things

So I have had a fantastic weekend just relaxing with Cassandra.
We have been watching this show called "Psychic Kids" for the last few hours.
Probably for longer than I want to admit.
But it's a really cool show.
Makes me realize most of us have probably had some sort of feeling of something watching us or had a creepy feeling like something is in the room at some point.
I'm not feeling that at this moment, luckily, but I have had that feeling.

It's cool to see the kids on this show and what they feel and how they accomplish getting past their fear.
It's a good lesson to learn and apply to other aspects of life.
To sit with the process and not have fear within facing that fear.

I will take positivity from this lesson and apply it to my own life.
Thanks, Psychic Kids!